If you just moved to NY or are an extreme optimist today, wait to read this post. Because I'm about to get serious about how I'm getting a little fed up...
You know that yearning, that vibe, that pulsation in your heart to do what you love? That need to feel creatively free or the consistent itching to show the world your passion? Well, I think mine has become so unbearable that it is numb. I haven't had an audition in 3 weeks! It's like "wait a minute, thought that's why I came to New York!"
And I know EVERYONE tells you, if you can't find work, create it. Well yes, that sounds like a great idea. Now all I need is a writer, director, space, (don't need to mention actors, there are plenty of those here) and time. If you aren't going to pay anyone for their work, than finding a time when even four people can get together every week when everyone has differing and inconsistent day jobs is nearly impossible because people aren't as committed. And I get it, you gotta have that money job for sure, and don't get me wrong I haven't lost sight of why I'm here and I'm not giving up, I'm just saying...it's freaking hard!
So you can't create it, fine, you can take classes! I would LOVE to take classes. That would be the best way for me to stay in the game and feel like I'm still creating...yeah awesome...oh, I'm sorry, $500 for a 4 week class? Do I stop eating, live on the street, or whore myself out? Oh, I know, I could get another job...that would then interfere with all the class times. Do you see the dilemma?
Alright, so I see shows which are inspirational. I read plays which are enjoyable. I learn monologues (well, okay, that takes a LOT more motivation, but sometimes it happens). However, this isn't always enough. Most of us come from doing theatre all through college, high school, if you are me, since you were 5. And maybe the longest I've gone without taking a class or being in something is, say, a year. Well it's been a year folks, and I'm about to itch my skin off or beg the pants of someone because if I don't do SOMETHING soon, my head is gonna blow off. I don't care what it is---reading, class, showcase, show but it needs to be fulfilling. There is too much crap out there they doesn't really make you feel whole.
So if you made it through the rant, what you can get out of it is this...Acting is freaking hard. It certainly gets annoying and frustrating. I'm feeling like a pessimist.
But on the bright side: Annie kicked some Broadway butt, there are tons of new shows opening, Halloween is almost here, and I'm wearing an argyle sweater today! (Optimism returns!)
You know that yearning, that vibe, that pulsation in your heart to do what you love? That need to feel creatively free or the consistent itching to show the world your passion? Well, I think mine has become so unbearable that it is numb. I haven't had an audition in 3 weeks! It's like "wait a minute, thought that's why I came to New York!"
And I know EVERYONE tells you, if you can't find work, create it. Well yes, that sounds like a great idea. Now all I need is a writer, director, space, (don't need to mention actors, there are plenty of those here) and time. If you aren't going to pay anyone for their work, than finding a time when even four people can get together every week when everyone has differing and inconsistent day jobs is nearly impossible because people aren't as committed. And I get it, you gotta have that money job for sure, and don't get me wrong I haven't lost sight of why I'm here and I'm not giving up, I'm just saying...it's freaking hard!
So you can't create it, fine, you can take classes! I would LOVE to take classes. That would be the best way for me to stay in the game and feel like I'm still creating...yeah awesome...oh, I'm sorry, $500 for a 4 week class? Do I stop eating, live on the street, or whore myself out? Oh, I know, I could get another job...that would then interfere with all the class times. Do you see the dilemma?
Alright, so I see shows which are inspirational. I read plays which are enjoyable. I learn monologues (well, okay, that takes a LOT more motivation, but sometimes it happens). However, this isn't always enough. Most of us come from doing theatre all through college, high school, if you are me, since you were 5. And maybe the longest I've gone without taking a class or being in something is, say, a year. Well it's been a year folks, and I'm about to itch my skin off or beg the pants of someone because if I don't do SOMETHING soon, my head is gonna blow off. I don't care what it is---reading, class, showcase, show but it needs to be fulfilling. There is too much crap out there they doesn't really make you feel whole.
So if you made it through the rant, what you can get out of it is this...Acting is freaking hard. It certainly gets annoying and frustrating. I'm feeling like a pessimist.
But on the bright side: Annie kicked some Broadway butt, there are tons of new shows opening, Halloween is almost here, and I'm wearing an argyle sweater today! (Optimism returns!)
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